The transition continues. I'll be moving into my new house this weekend! Mom came over yesterday and was a GREAT help, taking care of some cleaning while I finished up the painting. It's looking really great, but I've still got a little bit of trim touch-ups here and there. No big problem.
In these 9 months I've experienced a whole range of emotional, physical, psychological, and spiritual feelings. The emotional roller coaster was - much like a real one - a wild ride at first, but it's tamed down to a decent ride now, in part thanks to some good pharmaceutical engineering. Physically, I'm flirting with about 60 pounds of weight loss in that amount of time. Most of it was stress-induced, but a good portion was in part due to dietary changes. The compliments come almost daily now, and they're highly appreciated. I've also had a great physician/friend available to me, and he's been a great support. Psychologically, I've had two great people to guide me a long. A PhD psychologist, and a professional counselor have been on my speed dial since Day One. Their kind-hearted, practical, real-world support has kept me "grounded" during this time. Without them I'd be a complete wreck right now. Thanks, ladies. Spritually, there's been a whole host of people who've stepped forward with their prayers and support. I've written a lot in this blog about some of the questions and observations I've had about spiritual things during this time. Some are still yet unresolved, but that's alright. In due course and in good time they'll become clearer.
If all goes as anticipated, this phase of my journey will be complete soon. Before me I will have a blank slate, of sorts, on which to draw a new path. I've learned a lot about myself lately, not so much about "new" things about myself...but things that have always been there that I've pushed aside.
It is my hope that I'll bring those old traits back to the surface, and to be the "me" that I want to be. I'm not anticipating a wholesale change, but there will be some differences.
What's with the title "Uncertainty to 'Certainty'..."? For the past few weeks, moreso than any other time in these months, things are starting to settle down into a more predictable pattern. At first I had to take a tip from my own critical incident stress management teachings - maintain a routine. It seemed odd at first, somehow creating a "routine" out of complete chaos. But that "routine" has now, in fact, become THE routine, a new routine for me. And I like it. But I used the term "certainty" in quotes, because as I prepare for this next move (physical and personal), I can't be fully certain of what the near future will hold. I know what I'd like to see in the next few weeks and months, but like before, there are some adjustments yet to be made. Perhaps this current "routine" is but a transient one, holding me over until the next one settles in. That's fine, I look forward to it.
Thank you for your continued readership. I'll keep you posted as I go!
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